American poet Carlos Andres Gomez reflects on his life and his perspective on masculinity and how it has shaped who he is.

Part I. Little Carlitos. -- "Where are you from? ; poem: "All we have" -- Fear : beneath the facade ; poem: "Black boy" -- Guys' club : no faggots, bitches, or pussies allowed ; poem: "3 AM" (cowritten with Adam Falkner) -- Part II. On the precipice. -- Sex : fucking, making love, and fucking up ; excerpt from solo play Man up: monologue: "I wanna fuck more vs. the health care worker" -- Heroes and villains ; excerpt from solo play Man up: monologue: "Julio" -- Going to war ; poem: "Honest/clean" -- Weakness : the death of superman ; poem: "Saying goodnight" -- Part III. Man enough. -- Finding my voice in a poem ; poem: "What's genocide?" -- A knight in tarnished armor ; poem: "Wait" (cowritten with Jeanann Verlee) -- Love ; poem: "Hallelujah" -- Forgiveness : when there's nothing left ; excerpt from solo play Man up: monologue: "Rottweiler" -- Epilogue: excerpt from solo play Man up: monologue: "I have been, I am, I want to be.".