As AJ's family struggled with drug addiction, poverty, and mental illness, she found escape through comic books and video games. Inspired by tough and unconventional female characters, it wasn't until she discovered pro wrestling that she learned superheroes could be real. AJ trained and sacrificed for years to achieve her dream of wrestling professionally, but faced industry pressure to play the role of the damsel in distress and to dress more provocatively to cater to male fans. She created an ass-kicking alter ego that was nerdy, enthusiastic, and a little bit crazy. This is her brave confessional about her long road to self-acceptance.

Drowning barbies -- Mad love -- A place called home -- Swallow me whole -- A step-by-step guide on how to turn into your mother -- Lie to me -- The robin hood of the express checkout lane -- Born again -- I want to believe -- Hello sunshine -- No one wants to have sex with you -- Extra whip -- Girl on girl -- Crazy chicks do it better.